SAD & Gratitude 11/5

Yellowstone National Park, 9/2018

Welcome to another post 🙂

Today I wanted to talk about a new struggle I seem to be dealing with and some things I may be trying to combat that. As fall is in full swing and the days are growing shorter and shorter, I’ve noticed feeling a bit more gloomy than usual, especially on the cloudy, wet days. Seasonal depression is not something I’ve ever experienced before, until now it seems. If it’s sunny out, I have no problem, but if it’s overcast or precipitating at all, I’m immediately depressed, sometimes as soon as opening my eyes in the morning. I’ve also felt like doing a bunch of sitting around my apartment eating: specifically consuming deliciously unhealthy carb-rich things. Doing things around my apartment, exercising, and talking to people all help, but quiet time alone is also important to me, and it’s during that time the depression sets in again. I’m not completely sure what to do, as outside the traditional routes of medication, dawn simulators, vitamin D supplementation, and sitting in front of a light box, remedies really depend on the individual. I’m thinking of combating these feelings through some aromatherapy of sorts, meditation, continuing my weekly routine of working out 2-3 times, as well as practicing gratitude.

Speaking of gratitude, I’m needing to get back on track with this, so below are some things I’m grateful for!

#1: Heat!

Winter is my least favorite season of the year, and while the snow is beautiful to look at, I’m really thankful to have an apartment with adequate heating to stay warm.

#2: The ability to pursue my passion of lifting weights.

Well–I’m not sure weightlifting is a huge passion of mine yet, as the weightlifting program hasn’t yet begun at my gym, but I’m thankful to have all of the limbs required to lift weights.

#3: My Jeep

My car is 12 years old now: The warranty on it just expired and my dealership has started bugging me about getting into something new. I’d love to have a new car, but the new financial responsibility that comes with it: not so much. I’m thankful that my car has been so dependable throughout the 10 years I’ve had it; it’s gotten me through snowy winters, long summer drives, and rough terrain up in the mountains, all while still running well. I don’t know where I’d be without it!

#4: A new Church

I have a love/hate relationship with the church my family attended while they were here. The people know my family and I, and therefore worry when they don’t see me for a while, but that’s about the only tie I have to the place. Other than that I don’t really benefit from it. Recently I’ve started attending a different church that’s quite a bit less traditional, more open-minded and composed of much more welcoming people. I’ve only attended twice, but so far like the atmosphere, look forward to going, and don’t spend the entire service yawning (no joke, no matter how much sleep I get I always yawn throughout service at my original church). Over the past year I’ve attended different churches here and there, but never found one I felt like attending more than once, so I’m grateful to have a new place to explore and grow

#5: A working kitchen sink!!

Let’s just say I completely took my kitchen sink for granted until it was clogged the other day…

Did some googling, bought a plunger from the store, and now my sink is good as new, and I feel SO MUCH BETTER about life now!

#6: My fellow crossfitters 🙂

Today’s workout completely kicked my butt. I couldn’t seem to get a rhythm going (literally progressed at 2 reps at a time for a while), was tired for the whole workout, even cheated a little and still couldn’t finish in time. It was probably the crappiest I’ve done on a workout in a long, long time, but I’m thankful for all of my coaches and fellow classmates who cheered me on from the sidelines after they finished. At one point during some clean and jerks I was so tired and frustrated with my slow progress that part of me wanted to cry, so having so much support was really helpful.

Thanks for reading!

~ Jessie

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